All of my life I’ve struggled with making a career choice.
During the last two years of high school many students seemed to have had a sense of direction while I was clueless. I always knew what I was passionate about, but I was constantly being put down about it not being a realistic career choice. I even let it get to me, thinking that I would be looked at as an unintelligent girl for choosing that career. I am passionate about the beauty and fashion industry. It is something I’ve always known. I used to spend my Sundays watching the Fashion Television network and I lived for it. Now fast forward 9 years later and I’ve ignored what I love most. Sure I still keep up with what is going on in the industry, but I let go of my dreams and I am not proud of myself. I look back and I put myself down. I am 25 years old and I am unhappy with certain aspects of my life. I don’t like how badly I tend to treat myself. There is always this voice in the back of my mind telling me I’m not good enough, I don’t have enough confidence, I won’t make it far, others won’t like you…the list goes on.
Life is way too short to spend another day at war with yourself.”
When I am around people, I don’t like to talk about myself. My anxiety kicks in and I try to stay as quiet as I can in the hopes of no one approaching me. When ever someone converses with me who doesn’t know me well, all they ask about is Jude. I love my son and I know I am more than that, but how could I possibly have anything interesting to say if I am not doing what I love.
Call it a quarter life crisis! I know that is exactly what I’m going through, but after reading this quote
I made a promise to myself. The year 2015 will be the year I start chasing my dreams. I created this blog as a platform to talk about things I am passionate about as well as being open and honest on my experiences of becoming a mother and a woman. The blog is my beginning on this journey and I’ll continue accomplishing other goals that will lead me on the right path. I will also work on being nicer to myself. I will break out of my shell that I’ve hidden in for the past 5 years and be true to who I am. I won’t let myself down.
You’ll never be too young to learn…or too old to grow.” -Tacha Lo, yoursoulproject.com
Thank you to all who have supported me and who continue to do so.